A Letter to Dad
My Dad; Richard Williams, Jr.
Guess What? I’m a certified personal trainer; living in New York! Can you believe it?!
It seemed like a lifetime of struggling with my weight, growing up and feeling left out because I was fat. Anything that called attention to my body, negative or positive, has always been difficult.
Going through this process, this journey, made me face this weight issue. I could no longer hide.
My journey started when I hired a female personal trainer when I came to New York. I was not thrilled about my body and I felt I needed to do something about it.
She showed me a new world. She seemed so confident in her body. She was physical and loved herself. While making a conscious effort to follow her workout regimen I saw my body transform.
I felt alive and healthy. You could see my face glow.
I also surrounded myself with people who supported and encouraged me throughout the process. I remember you reminding me throughout my growing years that old saying, “If you don’t want to get yourself muddy, don’t hang around mud puddles.”
I followed your advice.
I sought out a network of positive friends and colleagues going through their own fitness and health paths. I could always learn from their challenges and success. I never felt alone.
Not only did I transform physically but something deeper occurred. The strength and light of my spirit changed. It grew and burned bright.
The desires for me have also changed.
I want to reach higher. I want to achieve more because I now know that I deserve it and am capable of doing so.
I’m aware of my worth and power.
I finally recognize this power that you’ve always reminded me I had, Dad.
Through this journey I was given so much more than I thought I’d ever imagine receiving. I was given a gift of knowing, of understanding.
I understand not only how profoundly I’m able to change my life but I’ve discovered I’m able to and will affect many individuals on deeper levels in their lives through my journey, through my experience.
To truly know is to experience. I finally know my power and am claiming it right here, right now as I write to you, Dad.
I am your butterfly.
I understand what you meant by being your butterfly. You saw that potential in me for great transformation.
Remember the day when you were leaving?
In the hospital, seeing you. I knew you were going to leave me.
It was a lifetime of struggle for you — fighting obesity, heart problems, diabetes, high blood pressure.
In the final moments of saying goodbye to you I had no idea that that moment could give me a new life, could encourage me to give something different to myself than what you had.
In those final moments you gave me an opportunity for a new life and I promise I will give others the opportunity for theirs through your undying spirit.
Your Daughter…Your Butterfly,
Love Always,
Diane.
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Blessings from above sometimes come when we are at our lowest. Rebirth is a great gift – I am sure your father is with you always
Thank you so much for leaving your blessed comment. I appreciate it.
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I lost my dad too… I was a teen when that happened, I adored him. This is a beautiful letter, very moving. And your site is amazing. For the record, you are one of the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen. Congratulations on this site!
Thank you H for leaving your comment. I must get to your blog very soon!
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I am sitting over here crying my eyes out what a beautiful tribute, what a beautiful acknowledgement of your self in and out and saluting the man who would set the stage of the kind of men you recieve in your life and the kind of man every man should be as a father…love lives forever! To be a butterfly you have to WANT to leave the cocoon! Ashe’ Wepa! Pura Vida! Rock on sis
Oh thank you for this acknowledgement. It is a beautiful response Lynx. I am pleased you felt my tribute to my Dad in your heart.
You are a wonderful, compassionate, trustworthy friend Lynx. I am grateful to have you in my life.
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That brought tears to my eyes. I haven’t had the strength to try to change. It all seems so overwhelming. Too much to lose, too much to change. Maybe by taking one step at a time, I can do this. Thank you for sharing so much of your heart with all of us.
Hey Casey,
Thanks for stopping by. I understand where you stand right now. I’ve been there and my transformation is not complete.
That symbol of the butterfly means so much to me. Before it expresses it’s visual beauty it goes through alot of pain getting out of that cocoon.
Transformation is not pain-free and is not easy breezy. Understand that and surround yourself with people who support your transformation.
And yes. You CAN do this.
<3 <3 <3
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I can see that you are an expert at your field! I am launching a website soon, and your information will be very useful for me.. Thanks for all your help and wishing you all the success in your business.
Thanks for stopping by and commenting!
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Thanks for the wonderful article. I’m sure that this site will be the tool that many women need. I wish you luck.
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Thank yo so much Kay for stopping by and commenting. I truly do hope my site is helpful for many women!
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